I had my cell phone taken away from me today. The phone bill came in today and I accidently used all the free minutes for the month. I didn’t mean to and the punishment isn’t too bad, but still. I wish I had my cell phone. I didn’t blab all my day time minutes away or anything. I make a lot of quick minute calls, which added up to a pretty big number. It isn’t too serious but it is sill over the limit. I still get to use my phone but my mom has to keep it with her when she is going to go to sleep. She doesn’t want me staying late and she wants me to clean my room, which isn’t going to happen unless I am in such a good working mood or when I get a new bookshelf.

Speaking of books I got my home school books in the mail yesterday, I think. I am really excited and should start catching up on my school this weekend. I like learning so it doesn’t bother me too much. There is only three days of school work I need to catch up on and I am really excited to break into my Biology book! I like being home schooled and I am currently at the point where I don’t care what comments people make about my education, I don’t care or I argue back. Yesterday I saw an acquaintance of mine when I was waiting for my mom to pick me up from school. He asked why I am I waiting outside and I replied that I only take one class here and that I am really home schooled. He just shook his head and smiled. Meaning I can’t believe you that’s stupid. All I thought in my head was shut up, you’re stupid. Although it is out of character for me to even think like that I would never say that in real life. Ha-ha!

This is the first weekend of the school year! Taking my Japanese classes at public school is really fun! I like riding with my best friend in the morning, walking around and saying “hi” to my friends when I see them. I do like my Japanese class a lot! I had to come to that class five minutes before the actual class started because everyone arrives early and I really disliked sitting in the back of the class for the first two days. I have no idea why but I never speak up in the class. I am normally a talkative person, but I haven’t said anymore than two sentences, in that room. My partner for some of the exercises didn’t want to do the exercises at all! If you read out loud or practice the language exercises you get something called “sensei money” which you can use to get stuff, I think. I haven’t gotten any yet and that bums me out but I will do a lot better on Monday.

I can’t wait till the school clubs get started! Dan invited me to join writers club and I am also interested in Japanese club as well. They don’t clash with each other at all because they meet at different days of the week, about once or twice a week. There is a football game this upcoming Friday and I plan on doing that too! There is also a homecoming dance which I know I will be invited to by the ever so lovely Cathy Dang. I didn’t get to see Donald at all, not even a glance! He said he might stop by my class today but it never happened. I asked Dan if he saw him on the bus but he said he wasn’t there. Maybe he is sick?

I talked to Rickey on the phone a bit before my mother took it away. When I told Rickey there is a chance that I am going to public school full time next year he was so excited and shocked. I thought I told him before.  I also hugged Rickey after class and it was alright. When we hug we don’t embrace each other enough. It is more like standing close to each other. I wonder if that’s my doing.

My name is J-Anne and it is pronounced as Jay-Anne.

My mother wanted to name all her children after my dad, whose name is Jay but she also wanted to name me after some other things too. I am named after my father and St. Anne also known as, Mary’s mother. That is the history of my first name, now. I just got done talking on the phone, with the ever so lovely Devon and he was telling me about a project he was doing for one of his classes. It was something about history of names. I was really interested and I wanted to look up my first and last name. Entering my first name in a few places didn’t do me any good, because I am the one and only J-Anne! Yes, my name is actually spelled like that, on my birth certificate and everything. My last name is pretty common so some interesting things came up.

The Carlson Family Crest and Name History

Origins Available: English, German, Norwegian, Swedish

Schleswig-Holstein, which is the northernmost state Western Germany, is the homeland of the proud surname Carlson. German surnames developed at a time when most Schleswig, and most of the German provinces, were states of the Holy Roman Empire. At first people used only a single name but as the population grew and people began to travel, they began to find it necessary to take on an additional name to differentiate themselves. Fairly general principles guided the development of hereditary surnames in Schleswig. Two of the common types of family names found in Schleswig are patronymic surnames, which are derived from the father’s given name, and metronymic surnames, which are derived from the mother’s given name. The surname Carlson derived from the Old German personal name Karl, which is derived from the Middle Latin word “carolus,” which refers to an adult male.

Some of the first settles of his family name or some of its variants were: Brita Carlsen, who landed in New York City in 1847. Cark Carlsson arrived in New York in 1846; while Johan Carlson arrived there in 1849.

                Suggested Readings for the name Carlson

·         Memories, Peter E. Johnson 1855-1926, and the Descendants of Emil Anton Carlson, 1881-1950 by Fritzene Carlson Moore.

Some note worthy people of the name Carlson

·         Edward Elmer Carlson (b.1991) is a retired American airline executive.

·         Robert J. Carlson (b.1929), who is a prominent American executive with United Technologies Corporation

Want to look up the history of your last name?

Click the link below and type it in the search on the top left.

http://houseofnames.com/xq/asp/sId./qx/default.htm

I love Xanga’s footprint tracker thing. The tracker keeps amazing record of who looks at my page, how many times they looked, where they come from and how they got to my site. Anyways, there has been a huge bump since my last week traffic. It went from five daily to twenty-five which is a huge difference. I just modified my account settings yesterday so I can be accessed by anyone, not just Xanga users. I am a little freaked with what I found on my footprint list because there are a few people that are unknown users that check back often from outside my state. I’ll let it slide but if it continues I am going to lock up my site again. Poop.

Last night I got into a deep thought about my life and love. These are really confusing topics if you have no idea where to start. My life is alright, I am not satisfied with it until I graduate high school and figure out where I stand in life. I feel kind of lost at the moment. I am determined to figure out what I want to do for my occupation. It just takes a lot of work to get there, if only I got a better start on my education. I know there is still a chance to work with what I got this is the last chance I have to start earning credits. I am on the happy side though because my mother has a job so I have no stress. She really wants me to clean the house when she is out working and I don’t mind but I haven’t got the whole routine going yet. Once I start that up again there is no stopping me!

I was also thinking about Rickey again last night. Why am I so confused about him? He definitely has potential to date me but I have to know him a bit more. I talked to him last night for about an hour and thirty minutes, the topic was Japanese Class and how much he loves it. We are on good terms now but even though he doesn’t show it to me much I know he is really emotional but I don’t know why. I wonder what is wrong with him because his life seems fine to me. The thing that I was thinking about when it comes to relationships is, you’re not supposed date the perfect guy. You’re supposed to go off of the things you need to have in a guy, respectful and nice and build off of that. You’re supposed to grow together and for some reason I did not think about this sooner. I am very hesitant about dating still, I don’t see Rickey as stable enough to date, but that’s what people are there for, to grow off of each other! Is that too deep? It sounds like marriage when I read this over but I am simply confused. I am way too serious and am my needs piratical enough or do I need to lower my standards?

I keep having sertain lyrics of Imogen Heap’s song Goodnight and Go replaying in my head.

I am currently doing well at the moment although I did have some a pretty lame weekend. I am trying to enjoy my last chance of my summer freedom by talking on the phone, staying late and basically doing whatever I want. School starts on Wednesday I can’t wait!

Since summer is practically over, I think I will do a quick summer recap! The kick-off to my summer was with our school prom. I met so many amazing people there and that night was simply unforgettable. It’s too bad I won’t be a student there anymore. I’d love to graduate as one of their students. Here is a link to some of the pictures taken and a video. I didn’t make the video and the red arrow is pointing to the video creator, not me.

http://www.photoreflect.com/scripts/prsm.dll?eventthumbs?event=02K20065



After that dance I was excited to start what I thought was going to be a relaxing summer, I was so wrong. My mother emotionally strained me this whole summer. The first month and a half I couldn’t go outside, I didn’t see my friends and I couldn’t go on the computer without being paranoid she might walk by and yell her head off. I made many attempts to get out of the house. I was constantly doing chores for a whole month because she said she didn’t want me going out while the house was dirty, fine. I did everything she asked. Then, she didn’t want me hanging out with people she doesn’t know, alright, I thought. So I tried to introduce some of my friends to her and she hated them, for no reason. I mainly wasted my whole summer trying to please her to get out of the house. It was simply one excuse after the other.

The main highlights of my summer are going to camp, seeing my grandparents and going to the fair. Going to camp was one of the huge events I went to. It was an amazing experience and I wouldn’t mind going back again! I meet so many great people there and I still keep in touch with them to this very day. To be honest the first day of camp really sucked and everyone was negative and distant but by the time camp was over no one really wanted to leave. There was this girl named Emily who inspired me to be a more loving patient person. I will never forget that girl. My buddy though out the whole thing was Marie. We have so many silly inside jokes together! Our friend Riley from our small group was wearing his shorts right above his balls. Since the spandex was tight and the rest was loose it showed off his curves. During camp we would always whisper, “It’s quite large” to each other because that was the first answer I gave to Marie when she asked how it was. I didn’t talk much to April that much during camp, but away from camp we talk to each other about two times a week about our personal issues. She gives really good advice and she cheers me up very well. I also applaud her for standing up for this one girl that got picked on a lot. At the end of camp I thanked her for standing up and doing it because I couldn’t at the time. Since then, I don’t talk bad about anyone anymore.




I believe I already talked about my grandma and grandpa but I will just go though it again because I can. My grandpa seemed to be picking on me quite a bit when he came over; he was trying too hard to be funny and actually ended up making some people mad. I am glad I didn’t have to do any Math when they came over. I enjoyed going to the fair with them even though they didn’t go on the rides with us. I enjoyed watching a lot of movies, going to I-Hop for one morning with my grandpa and painting my grandma’s nails the night before she left. I am glad I got to cook some really good food for them while they were here and entertain them to the best of my ability. I am so glad they didn’t get bored.

Going to the fair with Kevin was a blast! He got to show me a lot of cool rides and I went out of my comfort zone and tried some rides I have never tried before. Kevin and I have the same tastes in rides so it was all good. I got to see some of my friends there and I had this random guy follow me out of nowhere.

Aside from those huge events I got to watch a lot of movies with Donald including his favorite Transformers! We were all pumped up to watch it in Chris’s garage. We wore Donald’s Transformer shirts while watching the movie and ate a lot of junk food! I got to get to know Donald better over the summer. I know where he lives and we talk to each other often. I would consider him a pretty good friend now.

I met this kid Rickey Stover during WASL retakes. He is a cool kid minus the fact that he is flirtatious and likes almost every girl he sees. I haven’t even dated the guy but after a while of knowing enough of him I decided that I didn’t want to date him, now he acts like he is broken hearted. He put his emotions out there to soon, I made him sad and I don’t think we could be good friends again, regardless of this, he is still a pretty good kid and I hope things work out with both of us.

Last but not least is the always beautiful Devon. I believe I met him this summer though Flyff, a MMORPG game I play in my free time. He has helped me though a lot of hard times and I can easily let my guard down around him. He is caring and understanding, I like how he takes the time to listen to my long, annoying and boring rants and venting. He is the only guy I know so far that I can be leveled with, not higher or lower. Sadly, I always deprive him from his beauty sleep. I’m sorry. I don’t know where I would be without you lovely.

I have no idea how they could ban something this awesome!

Things have gotten better. I wish I was more creative with my titles or just simply creative in general. I am officially registered in public school and I will be taking Japanese 1 on for first period. I am so excited I talked with the school councilor, walked around the building a bit and found my Japanese class. My best friend will be riding with me to school every morning! I joked around with her about how annoying I will be by the time the school year is over. I am not entirely happy yet but I hope on getting there.

If I do well in this year in my school work my mother says I can go to public school next year, if I want to of course. I am very much interested in this idea but there is so much thinking to do. I am happy with the outcome of my school; I am not ready to think into the future so I will just take what I got and work with it.

I’ve been listening to some pod casts again. Grammar Girl was talking about using the double the, and how it is strange would be to talk about something with the word “the” in the title.  A listener asked, “Do I have to use the word ‘the’ twice? It does make sense to ask a friend, ‘Have you heard the Ghost soundtrack?’ But what happens if the name of the movie starts with ‘the,’ like The Fast and the Furious? It certainly doesn’t sound correct to say, ‘Have you heard the The Fast and the Furious soundtrack?” but logically it makes sense to say it twice.” The answer to this interesting question is to simply word it differently and be more specific. Say something like; have you heard the soundtrack from the movie The Fast and the Furious? I’m in love with the Fast and Furious theme song! I had this problem a long time ago and I never really got an answer up until now. So I am pretty happy. Also, Grammar Girl is having this awesome book give away. I register for it and I wonder if I’ll win.

Michael messaged me out of no where! I talked to him about our friendship and how I don’t like the way he treated me the last time we hung out. He said that he is used to acting like that with his other friends and he should have thought twice before doing that because I am not like that. I forgave him because he is still going though a tough time with his parents and stuff but I reminded him that I will always be there. Cathy on the other hand, did not seem quite happy with the way I handled Michael but that’s ok. I know more than anyone what he is going though, it tough, even though I cannot fully relate to his divorce and different conflicts. Michael has a reason to act the way he does now, he is hurt emotionally and nothing seems to go his way. I know he will get better one day, I know he won’t be anything like this. I have a strong memory of how he used to be before all this happened; I wish he will turn back to his old self….

I feel so emotionally broken and unstable. Things have been crashing down on me lately; nothing seems to go my way. I got back at helping with my youth group, and as usual, I was the only one there to help out. I didn’t get much work done with me and my youth minister. I did my best.

I tried confronting my mom a few times this week about my need for some clothes. I say it as nice as I can and she always takes it wrong and she add more to my sentence than what I said. She doesn’t understand English very well and my brain shuts down when she starts raising her voice at me.

Money is such a huge issue right now. I want things go out well, I am an emotional wreck. I am basically crying my eyes out right now. I don’t understand how simple things can turn complicated. I need to focus on one thing at a time. I need to drive now. I need to start getting around on my own, the sooner the better. It is one step closer on getting out of here. I can’t wait for that day to come.

My mom is pressuring me about my education. I understand it is a huge deal, I think I want to take my main subjects, English, History, Science and Math at home. I will take my electives at public school, with some sports? Cathy says I need to pass my courses to take sports but I did horrible last year.

I e-mailed Rickey last night; it seems we are patching things up. I am a tad bit happy with that. Donald created a Xanga in hopes of being recognized as an amazing movie critic. I’ve starting talking to Dan Snow recently. Everyone tells me he is mean but he is nice to me at least. I am doing better now that I vented.

Everything that happened today was unexpected. First thing in the morning my mother said I am enrolled in public school for Japanese class. I am so excited yet worried. I don’t have nearly enough clothes to be seen for more than a few weeks! My wardrobe consists of pajamas and sweats. Since I was mostly homeschooled there was no need for beautiful clothes at the time, but now I need to go shopping! I have to wake up early because my Japanese class is first period. I would have picked a different time but there is no more available.

Last night my mother asked me if I should just go to school there. I was surprised when she asked because my parents, mostly my dad, didn’t want me public schooled. I am still considering the option of just going to public school but it isn’t as simple as that. This is a very serious matter, at least to me. Let me lay out my story.

I have been homeschooled, public schooled and have taken online courses. I’ve been public schooled from when I was little, till fourth grade. My teacher enjoyed teaching until my rowdy class came along; she was annoyed and always angry. She didn’t put much effort into teaching because just she wanted to get it over with. She didn’t really tell me if I had any missing assignments or anything, so I continued the year thinking I was fine until conference day.

I was pulled out of public school and repeated a grade. I was now home schooled. I loved home school for about two years and it got boring. There was no one to compete against and everyday was the same. One summer my mother got this crazy idea, she thought since I was homeschooled I might as well sudy though the summer. So, that’s what I did. When school year rolled around my brain was so tired, I was only about eleven at the time. I was continuously nagged since then; I simply needed one break to get back up to speed. I only got that break this summer, somewhat.

After being homeschooled for five years, I took online courses at Insight School of Washington. That didn’t go out well because it was their first year, all the first year students were just gene pigs. I am a tad bit sad I am not going there next year; I would have loved to graduate as their student. The education and community was great. I made so many great friends and even though I am not continuing Insight I am still going to keep in contact with all my friends.

Going back to public school will be weird. I know it will be different adjusting to the negative environment. I am a very social person I know I will make it though. I don’t know if I can take it five days a week, for about eight hours or so? I am afraid I might get held back again and I don’t think I can take that a second time. I am persistent to learn and I know I can do it with a bit of help. I have a lot of doubt about it, but I would like to get the chance to try it out for a while.

Aside from school I got to talk to Rickey today. He doesn’t seem like he is ready to talk to me yet. I am going to e-mail him or something. I want him to talk to me when he is ready, I don’t want to force it. I got a friend request on Xanga from Tolden again, which lead me to call Aly in a rather pissed mood. I don’t know why I can’t get though to her. It is common sense. Then, I got to talk to the lovely April today. I am so glad I got a hold of her; she is so nice to talk to. Yeah, she laughed at what I had to tell her. I like how encouraging she is, she is such a good friend to talk to.

Overall my day went well. I got a hair cut from this really nice lady. I am currently not satisfied with my hair cut, I never am. I think I will like it later though, when I mess around with it. I have to mess with my hair to like it. I was very productive today. Horary!

My mom went to her job orientation today. I snuck Donald in the house to watch Mission Impossible 3. I came up with an escape plan for him just for incase she came home during the movie but that plan wasn’t used. We were so tense near the end of the movie because we thought she would be home already. Chris really freaked us out because he rang the door bell when we were both on our guard. I was so relieved to find him at the door but at the same time Donald and I wanted to kick him in the balls. We didn’t finish the movie all the way and my mom was really pissed when she came home to find me talking to Donald on my porch. She didn’t yell at me as bad as I thought but I don’t want her to quit her new job because she is afraid of me doing things without her knowing. So I should stop doing that.

I am now re-enrolled in Seaton Home School again. It sucks because I can only take six classes at a time and their electives really suck. I will have to edit the subject because I noticed that I forgot to include math. I don’t really want to have religion as a required subject again; don’t you know how annoying it is to learn Adam and Eve all over again? I hope that if I get all my work done really well I can take more than six classes next year. I guess all that is left is to take some part time classes at Olympic.

Cathy slept over a few days ago, I was so happy because it was really unexpected! The funniest we did while she was over was, putting weird word stickers together to make strange sentences. I want to keep them on my closet door. We went to church together the next morning; my parents had a long meeting about Sunday school afterwards. We got into an argument if they take too long I’ll just walk home. They didn’t take me seriously but we all rushed home from church. It was fun because we beat my home by only five minutes. Everyone was so out of breath the second we got home.

The same day Cathy slept over was the same day I told Rickey I didn’t want to date him. I had a hard time telling him, but it had to be done. He seemed really sad and shocked; I didn’t intend to hurt him at all. I want him to be free to date and flirt with anyone he wants when school starts up in a week. I don’t want him to be tied down to me and I don’t want to be tied down with him at the moment. My reasons for not wanting to date him is, after the first week he his attention is divided and he didn’t seem interested in taking time to get to know me. I don’t want him to devote himself to me or anything but if he would rather watch television than talk to me, I rather go because I am just sitting there trying hard to start a conversation that isn’t going to happen. I could be doing something more productive. He said he still wants to be friends but I wonder if he would actually go through with that. I may date him some way down the road but I don’t think he is ready for someone as serious as me.

In-between these blogs I have been venting on Devon and Donald. I am more open with Devon more and I am so glad to have a friend like him. He wants to listen to my random vents and I hope he will come to me when he wants to vent as well. He sent me a really sweet video on my MySpace about our friendship. It made my day! I need to come up with a good excuse for my mother when the bill comes up though. She will be wondering who he is, I am sure to have an excuse by then.

I hate lying to my mother but I do it all the time for the most stupid things. I only lie to my mother because she will have the longest speeches for something as simple as not finishing all my food. She also interrogates all my friends and she doesn’t trust me so I always have to lie. I can’t wait to be on my own, which is the only time I think I will be truly myself and I don’t need to hold back.

Wow, there is so much that can happen in one week! I simply don’t know what to think of it but I will start where I left off. My grandparents seemed to have fun visiting us, they left on Friday. My Grandfather and brother ate at I-hop for breakfast. My sister didn’t come because she doesn’t like pancakes and eggs. I ordered what I thought was a breakfast sandwich. It turned out I was looking at the lunch menu! We went to the fair on that same day, which I will explain later and we watched a lot of movies. Stranger than Fiction, Flicka and Blood Diamond, just to name a few. I had a lovely talk with my Grandma and I got to paint her toenails.

I love my Grandma; she is my role-model for many reasons. I want to be just like her when I grow up. She is hard working and she lives life to the fullest. There is nothing that slows her down! The way my grandparents manage their money is amazing. They always have so much to give and have plenty left over. Before they left they gave me sixty-five dollars. They normally give us fifty but I did her nails so she gave me an extra fifteen dollars. The fifteen was unexpected, it was too early in the morning and I would have said no thank you, to the extra money but I was so tired.

Our time at the fair together was fun. They didn’t go on any rides but there was plenty interesting things to see. We saw a lot of farm animals and a few stage shows. I ran into Kevin when we first got there so I got to hang out with him the whole time. Kevin and I seem to have the same taste in rides; his option gave the courage to try some rides I never tried before. I got to see Rickey for a very brief moment, if only they didn’t need to check in with their stepdad, we could have hung out more!

A few days after my grandparents left I decided to call Insight about my laptop. I haven’t gotten it yet and school was about to start in a week or so. I called them up and they said that I was no longer a student. There was a huge mix-up! The call I got weeks ago from my school councilor was a mistake, they said I wasn’t supposed to be on that list. My English teacher said that I haven’t turned in enough work to continue next year. I was so devastated I didn’t know what to do at the time. I didn’t cry but I got up and moved on.