On MySpace there are these little application downloads you can add to your profile. There is this thing called a “Truth Box” where you can comment someone anonymously and tell them whatever you want. If they have a Truth Box as well you can comment them anonymously back and have a full on conversation without knowing which one of your friends your speaking to. Anyways, I checked my Truth Box today and I got this really bizarre comment which is the following.

“hott lil thing spunky and true. hell of a body and hell of a thinker i secretly love you in a way. i talk to you only by phone. weve meet but yet talk late at night. call me sometime if you know who i am.

your friend ???? ??????”

The reason for so much improper grammar is because writing in your own style pretty much reveals who you are. I wrote to someone saying they were awesome; the same why I am typing now, with my traditional comment smiley that usually follows and that just pretty much blew my cover. Yes it was embarrassing but I didn’t say anything mean or confess my undying love so it was all good.

The “???? ??????” I didn’t look into as much then I thought oh, it must be a name! I know I am slow ok, don’t laugh. So my suspicions are possibly Jake Fisher but it is way too soon to tell.

Last night I talked to Jerry until two, I think. We were just talking about random stuff but I felt a little bit embarrassed when I asked him, really awkwardly I might add, why he didn’t sign online last night. I just was wondering where he went off to especially when he told me the day before he wasn’t going to go online I assumed that he had some sort of sleep over or hangout that night. Turns out, he didn’t and he just took a break from being online which is totally cool with me. The thing is I might have appeared clingy with that question which is rather embaressing and I think I am pretty far from clingy.

I have to say that since we have only been dating for about a month and I do feel that he is opening up a lot. I also feel really weird that we are dating and he is “now starting” to open up. I usually wait for people to open up during friendship so I am really comfortable with them while we are dating. So this is all really just throwing me off of what I am usually used to.

Yesterday Jerry really surprised me because we were talking about something kind of inappropriate and I said I really don’t feel comfortable talking about this in general but what we were talking about I won’t say. I was expecting him to get all irritated and whatever but he said no it’s ok, I understand. I wonder if he really means it or just saying that. Only time will tell.

So there is this guy from my old school who I have been talking to for a while now though MySpace. It is really funny that we naturally call each other dear and he calls me hun, which I find cute. We actually just exchanged numbers recently and he might call me tonight. I am really excited but I am loyal to Jerry though and I am giving Jerry time to grow with me, or whatever you want to say.

Yesterday I went to Barnes & Noble which was really fun. I read My Secret: A Post Secret Book and finished it in the store which was pretty awesome. I added it to my “already read” section on my Shelfari and put 5 out of 5 star rating and favorite it. I bought some awesome SparkNotes on HTML and study tactics in attempts on getting though some really boring school books I have to read.

So here is the funny part. I am walking across the store back and forth because I am checking in with my dad and telling him what time it is and when we should go home ect. And this guy who works there was saying the regular questions like, are you finding everything alright? Is there a particular book you need? If you need anything I will be right around here but he was really implying can I help you to ease my boredom. I didn’t think much of it the first time but the second time he scared the freak out of me because I was walking into the midsection of the store, where they have an open space and featured book tables. I was staring at a cute summer tote, that was big enough to hold books and I can bring to the beach without getting my books wet. The guy surprised me because he was lurking between some shelves and said are you sure you’re finding everything alright? In that really board, save me tone and I said yes thank you and my dad was finally done browsing and I left the store laughing my head off.

This weekend has been so exhausting! Yesterday I went to Viking Fest; I invited Cathy and met up with Chase there. Before I ran around the carnival my parents wanted to meet Chase because they are strict, and want to know the guys I hang out with. They said he seems like a pretty good guy and didn’t have a problem with him. Although, my parents thought we were on a date or something. Chase is so nice he bought tickets for rides and attempted to buy me and Cathy food. I declined the offer on food because I thought it was just too much. I felt he really wanted to talk to me, and I wanted to talk to him as well but I didn’t have the slightest clue what to say! This is the first time I actually had nothing to say. After a while we met up with Nicole and Charles. We tried to browse though the stores but sadly most of them were closed. The book store was open though and we read where Waldo books to pass by the time but then I had to go. On the way out of the carnival we passed by a marble booth that were giving away free lucky marbles and the guy let me take an extra one, which I thought was pretty cool.

That night I stayed up till twelve talking to Donald. We spent, what seemed the majority of our phone call talking about Pokémon. We are planning to see both Narnia movies this Thursday. I am so excited. The bad news is, Donald is moving and that makes me so sad. It’s ok because I know a really awesome goodbye present that I am sure he will love!

Today was the last day of Sunday school and Youth Group at our church. Another sign that summer is almost here! I am really excited and I hope I get my school work done in time.

Today was a terrible day. I missed my math tutoring this morning because I was napping. I obviously didn’t sleep well the night before. My mother is nagging me about sleeping properly and on time but it doesn’t work like that. I have been having sleep problems for about ten years now and it runs in the family. I told her it is like telling a sick person to just get better, it doesn’t work like that at all!

I feel like she set me up to fail life or something because there is so much more she could have done to help me in life, rather than sitting there. At least that’s what it feels like she’s done.

I feel better because I played outside with Kevin Kun and talked to Michael on the phone. He will be ungrounded by this Wednesday! Meaning I can hang out with my sugar booger again.

Jerry has been opening up to me a lot lately, which is always a good sign. Though, it is kind of weird that we have dreams about each other. Most people including myself can’t control their dreams so dreaming about something you actually want is pretty awesome.

I am not looking forward to seeing my tutor tomorrow so that will be slightly embarrassing.  I am probably going to do some really long apologies.

Thirty-five days still school is over; I have to do some massive studying if I am going to finish this school year with some credits. I haven’t done anything at all, so far.

It is really hard to stick everything out when you’re being put down daily about everything. Though there is something that my friend Jake fisher said that I may never forget. He said something like do whatever it takes to get to your goal, even though you have to go through a lot of crap, the independence is worth it.

I want to say so much thanks to my friends and a few of my family that puts up with my crap. Like my sister who is cleaning my room out of her own free will, to make me feel better. I am not well enough to function properly and I am glad that there are people like you who realize it.

I am excited because it is almost the end of the week! There is this guy at school that I think likes me. I talk to him every morning before class starts with a lot of my other friends. My friend Cathy said that she notices that he pays special attention to me, even though there are many other people in the group. She says he stares at me and stuff unlike everyone else. It was funny because I was instant messaging her telling her that I think he likes me and exactly a few seconds afterwards, he asks me to go to this thing called Viking fest? I said I would ask my parents but I would love to go.

The funny thing is that isn’t the only boy. Since second period started, I haven’t seen Rickey that much but now he comes up to me a few times a week. Is he just doing this because it’s almost summer time and he wants me as a summer fling? I have no idea. I think that he was crushed by the fact that I rejected his offer to date so soon and to still be friends, when I kind of promised that I will see about it two months after I knew him. After I did that he completely withdrew from me, he stopped calling and keeping in contact with me in general.

Not to sound like I have a boy list going but I get along with Sam my childhood friend, not to be confused with Samuel McIntyre or in my earlier entries as just Sam.

A few months ago I was doing a fundraiser for our church, I was selling lumpia and I had my chair tilted back trying to sleep because it was between masses and no one was there. She came up to me (it was kind of awkward having someone stare at you while you’re sleeping) and she asked, do you know my grandson? I replied who is your grandson? She said Sam Silverstein, which I instantly woke up excited saying we lived in the same apartments and went to school together! I haven’t seen or talked to him in years! She kindly said well if you write down your number I will give it to him the next time I see him. Which I did, and I anxiously waited for him to call me but he never did. I only waited a week until I tried to find his MySpace, with no luck. I looked at my wall which had our old class photo and looked for the correct spelling of his name, I typed it in and he added me. He also remembered me to, after all these years!

I wanted to talk on Myspace and catch up with him but all he kept saying is, want to play Brawl? Which I have to admit, was really irritating and someone depressing not being able to talk about what’s happened over the years, I still haven’t gotten around to that conversation because he doesn’t seem interested in talking about those things. We planned to go walking next time the weather here is good. I kind of like him because we have so much in common. We both have a love for nature; fishing and we both have generally positive energy. Though this one day I had a bad day he didn’t do a good job of cheering me up. All he said was, I try not to let those things get to me, which wasn’t comforting at all. There aren’t a lot of things that bother me and if they do I feel better about it after writing in my Xanga.

I think it is so weird that after I am actually dating someone (although most people don’t know about it) that’s when the guys start coming to me. It is really bizzare!

I think I came to a conclusion about Jerry, after reviewing my past weblogs and thinking a lot. I love Jerry I really and truly do but we just don’t click in the most important ways, like communication and priorities. He has definitely made a huge change because he talks a lot more now but he isn’t exactly a “chatty Cathy”. Above all I can feel people’s energy and whatnot, I am more attracted with people who have a strong desire to be out-and-about exploring and living life. Like Sam and Donald for example. With Jerry I don’t know if he has a sense of adventure. I know he lives in a very boring place but there has to be something other than video games that he could be interested about. I should ask him tonight, if I remember. I don’t think I will break up with him quite yet, I will give him time. I am also very aware of the consequences that he may not want to be with me again, even as friends.

Fettuccine with Oyster Mushrooms, Sweet Garlic and Arugula

1/4 cup extra virgin olive oil
15 cloves garlic
2/3 cup cinzano rossi or any sweet red vermouth
10 ounces oyster mushrooms = trimmed
4 T unsalted butter
salt and freshly ground black pepper
1 bunch arugula, stemmed, washed and dried
1/3 cup freshly grated pecorino cheese

Bring 6 quarts of water and 2 tablespoons salt to a boil in a large pot.

Meanwhile, in a 10 – 12″ sauté pan heat the olive oil over medium heat until almost smoking.  Add the garlic and sauté until lightly browned on all sides.  Remove from heat and add the vermouth.  Replace the pan onto the burner, add the mushrooms and butter, and bring to a boil. Reduce by half then remove from the heat and keep warm.

Cook the pasta until tender and then drain. Add to the mushrooms and stir gently over medium heat for about 1 minute to coat the noodles.  Add the arugula and toss until wilted. Transfer to serving dish and toss with the cheese.

This weekend went by pretty well; I spent most of it with my family. One of my highlights was Mother’s Day because my family just rented some movies from Safeway and we were just watching them all day. It was really funny because my Dad was crying almost all day today like during church when deacon Bob read a cute story; that seemed like one of those tear-jerker, e-mail forward stories. He also cried during certain parts of the movie. We made a joke that he was crying a lot today because he is a programmer who spends too much time on the computer, and he is letting out all his emotions out at once.

I like spending time with my dad; he is so easy to talk to unlike my mom who will disagree with everything that comes out of my mouth. I try to spend as much time with him on the weekends because I don’t get to see him much. The commute from our house to work is so long that he just stays near his work on the weekdays.

Since I am pretty up-to-date with current affairs and I have predicting everything bad that’s happened so far, I think it is safe to say it’s almost at the end of the world, my world, as in America. The reason I say this is because America is broke but not only broke we are below dirt level broke. America’s national debt for the total of our country is almost 10 trillion dollars, or in numbers it is literally 10,000,000,000,000. So the best thing I have to say right now is stalk up on food, not just rice but everything especially water. Save electricity with florescent light bulbs, not because it is good for the environment but because it is great for your bills.

So I am expecting a great depression and a holocaust. Whether you believe me or no that’s fine.

If you disagree with me just don’t get to mad about it.

On a lighter note I got Pokémon diamond for the Nintendo DS and so far it is alright. My highest Pokémon is level 30 and I have beaten two gym leaders though, I wouldn’t recommend anyone to buy this game. I rather you save your money to buy something more interesting like Professor Layton and the Curious Village or just stalk up on food.

Also there is only an Asian rice shortage. If you eat American rice you will be fine so there is no need to panic. People you need to start thinking and questioning things for yourself instead of the news just telling you what everything is. Keep your mind stimulated and question everything and anything.

There is more than just the popular opinion.

I feel like such a Xangan newbie sometimes, I have now just discovered “Xanga Academy” and it is wonderful but for those who don’t know what it is it is a thing that randomly selects your recent weblogs and such so you can comment and rate and have your rating compared to what was the overall general rating of other people. I personally think it is pretty nifty and I have read some really good posts!

I also think it is a great way to contribute to the Xanga community.

Yesterday I went to Olive Garden for my friend’s birthday. I was so nervous because I arrived thirty minutes late and I thought everyone was already settled and already ordered but I forget Olive Garden is always full and it takes forever to be seated. I didn’t know everyone that my friend Melissa invited to her party but that didn’t matter because we all seemed to get along. I ordered Sausage Rigatoni which was sausage and pasta covered in sauce. It was pretty good but I’ve had better.

Oh the look on my friend Melissa face was priceless! I got her a card showing a guy with sexy abs, mixing cake batter with some of it on his body. Inside the card it said “want to lick the batter” which I thought was hilarious.

After that we went to Barns and Noble at the mall. My friend showed me a really amazing book that I really want to buy. It’s called Post Secret and it is just people who send in their confessions anonymously. There are a lot of really wild confessions that blew my mind! Maybe it could be because I am simple minded I don’t know. Though, I wonder if the majority of perverted confessions could have been influenced by sexualized culture. There are constantly commercials implying something sexual, even day-to-day conversations constantly joke around about sex and sexuality, that is has now become absolutely normal. I tend to make a lot of jokes to my guy friends that they all have boyfriends, I really want to stop this bad habit but it is so fun and in some ways it can be somewhat pressuring to be the only one not talking about things like this.

I am above the influence, so I’ll just stop.

Before I was about to leave Barns and Noble I saw my friend Hombee which I haven’t seen in forever. We talked about random stuff. He is going to Japan really soon and I am excited for him. Maybe I should ask him to get me some cute imports for me.  His hair is looking really nice and I hope everything works out with him and his maybe soon-to-be girlfriend, long story.

I have been dating this guy Jerry since 4/18/08. Before you go awe, that’s cute just wait. I have wrote in my earlier blogs that I am so frustrated about him and that I highly doubt things will ever work out between us and whatnot. I am just going to bluntly state all the reasons why it is not working so far in this relationship. He is way to up tight. I am always afraid I will get on his nerves and when I think I am doing alright he tells me to stop doing something. He can’t hold a good conversation and conversations are one of the most important part of a relationship. I’ve had amazing flowing conversations before and it gives me an amazing happy feeling. We are really different people with quite a number of things in common but in general I don’t feel the “click” and neither am I going to force myself to make it work either.

I went into this relationship hoping that things would change for the better but I think I am going to end up killing the whole thing altogether by ending it; which is funny because I never really get myself into these stupid situations. I also just remembered my own advice just now, if it doesn’t work out as just friends it’s just not going to work at all because love is simply friendship on fire. Crap, I just remember everything I stood for, why am I so dang forgetful.

It’s not difficult to use proper etiquette. Generally you must treat others in the same manner that you would like to be treated, or sometimes even more politely than you feel you need to be treated. Etiquette involves respect of those around you and consideration of their needs, and ought to be observed during the most everyday and mundane activities. What follows are a few basic guidelines to help you use proper etiquette: 

Everyday Etiquette

1.     Always say “please” or “thank you.” No one likes a demanding or ungrateful person. When requesting an item, always say, “please,” and never say “gimme” or bark an equally rude order.

2.     When making someone’s acquaintance, it’s always proper to shake the other person’s hand and say “nice to meet you” or offer similar pleasantry.

3.     Cover your mouth when coughing or sneezing.

4.     It’s never good manners to burp, pass gas or display other rude bodily noises.

5.     Never interrupt when someone is speaking. Wait until you’re sure he has finished before adding your own thoughts.

6.     Never wear a hat indoors.

7.     When greeting someone, it’s always best to say, “Hello Judy,” or, “Hello Mr. Smith,” rather than simply “Hi,” or, “How’s it goin’?” If another person is with you, always make introductions immediately after shaking hands.

When Dining

1.     When eating, always use silverware if it’s offered to you. Unless you’re eating bread or a type of cuisine that’s customarily eaten with fingers, it’s very bad form to use your fingers.

2.     Always excuse yourself from the table or room when blowing your nose.

3.     Never speak with your mouth full of food.

4.     Always keep your elbows off the table and your hands in your lap when not in use.

5.     Always turn of cell phones before entering a restaurant.

6.     Always wait until your entire party is seated and served before eating.

When In Public

1.     When standing in line, always wait your turn and never push those in front of you. Impatience is impolite.

2.     When visiting a theater, turn off cell phones, iPods, pagers and other noisy personal devices. Refrain from talking once the show begins and never kick the chair in front of you. You may even want to consider the subject matter of a film before buying a noisy container of popcorn or candy.

3.     Consider the age of those around you. Some language or behavior may be inappropriate for children to witness.

When Entertaining

1.     Always send a thank you note when a gift is received or thoughtful service or deed is performed.

2.     No matter how clean you would like your carpet to be, it’s not proper to ask guests to remove their shoes upon entering your home. If they are expected to go shoeless, slippers should be provided.

3.     Always be sure guests have been properly introduced. Never assume everyone in the room knows one another.

4.     Keep conversation flowing and avoid awkward pauses. Change the subject when bawdy or controversial subject matter arises. Traditionally, political and religious discourses are to be avoided. Unless you came together for these reasons.

5.     Be sure each guest has been offered refreshments upon entering the social room.

The Telephone

1.     When using an answering machine, be as brief and focused as possible.

2.     Always return phone calls within 24 hours unless you’re away from home.

3.     Avoid letting young children answer the phone. It may be adorable to the child’s parents, but to the party on the other end, it can be rather frustrating.

4.     Speak in a low, clear voice. No one likes to be the recipient of shouting and yelling.

5.     Turn off televisions and music and talk at a time when the children are quiet. It’s difficult for the other party to hear with a lot of background noise.

6.     When speaking on the telephone, never yell or slam down the phone. If you must put the other party on hold, make sure you get back to your call quickly. If the incoming call is taking longer than expected, make sure you check on the person you were originally talking to and tell them you’ll call back later or say it won’t be much longer.

To use proper etiquette is to show others that you care enough to be considerate. It’s not difficult to say a few kind words or treat others with respect. In return, you’ll be shown the same courtesy.

This may seem like a lot but after sometime this will become like second nature to you. So keep trying your hardest!

I really wanted to be a Xanga Premium member for such a long time and I just found out in the “Account Settings” that you can become a member for free, just as long as you are an active Xanga member! I am so excited because I personally didn’t want to pay $100 if I didn’t have to. I was thinking I could be a member after I get a job or something but never mind that! I am currently earned 30% with 70% to go! I am sure I can become a member this year, if I can keep figuring out what to write without being boring.

Today I felt really bloated and I threw up a bit because I ate too much. I felt better at the end of the day to go to Youth group. I heal pretty quickly and throwing up is so yucky! I also noticed the weather is making me act weird, it’s currently allergy season and I normally don’t have a reaction to these things until this year. I’ve had swollen eyes, constant sneezing and runny nose but thankfully it seems to be all over now.

At youth group I had fun making paper origami things for Mother’s Day. I helped my friend Carrie on making an origami container and Lucky stars to put inside it. She seemed really happy that she finally learned out to make paper stars.

For Mother’s Day I am not entirely sure what I am going to do. I’m working on a really awesome arts and crafts project to give to my mom and I’m thinking of cooking and cleaning on Mother’s Day. Other than that I am really not sure what to do.

A few weeks ago I had to break off a friendship with one of my friends because they weren’t treating me right. It’s a really stupid thing to fight about; it’s all common sense really. When he is having a bad day he thinks he can treat me however he wants, simply because he is having a bad day. I told him I understood he is having a bad day and might say things he doesn’t mean but that doesn’t give him the right to disrespect me. So I really had to break off friendship with him because of this and the fact that he is becoming too clingy and really emotionally attached.

I feel really good about it though because I usually put up with a lot of people like this, who are not being reasonable. So that’s one thing off my chest.

Three days ago I bought this really awesome product called the Neutrogena Wave. I researched this product ahead of time to make sure I am not wasting time and money and so far it has been absolutely mind blowing! I have a pretty bad acne problem and this is the first time I have actually felt it was cleaning my face. I bought this product because I couldn’t sand how much work I had to do on my face daily. My face has some oily parts, some flaky parts and redness but don’t imagine me with a screwed up looking face because you have to be really close to my face to notice these things. Anyways this thing works miracles; even if you don’t have acne. If you just want a soft, clean face, then this is everything you need.

Links about this product and discounts is in the link below.

http://www.neutrogena.com/ProductsDetails_405.asp