May 20, 2011
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Try, fail, try again to fail
I am really frustrated. For a while now, I have really disliked being an aide. I don’t like being treated with disrespect for no reason from one of my bosses only because of my job status and always having an intense workload. Being an aide has prevented me from going to school. It is so hard to have a physically intensive job while going to school, trust me, I’ve already tried it. I need to find a job that works mornings so I can get back into school and not feel so overwhelmed. One of the worst feelings in the world is to be both physically exhausted and mentally and have nothing left to give.
I really don’t appreciate that I work my butt off and I only make slightly over minimum wage. Perhaps I am too high strung but I find it unfair that people who work in the hospitals get paid more than I do and do a lot less work. I want to find myself in a position like that.
Anyways, I’ve been looking for other jobs that can help me in a better position. So I turned to banking.
I really liked their hours and their general work load and requirements. They have good benefits and they give incentives to go back to school. I need something like that in my life.
So yesterday was my interview but it wasn’t much of an interview, it was more like let’s take some tests and then we will talk. I was alright with that. Long story short I failed the test. The minimum they wanted on the money test was 80% and if I got one more question right I would pass. I passed the typing test with a 98% accuracy rating but they said I need to type faster and learn how to use the key pad. The most frustrating part about this whole thing is that I have to wait three months to apply again. THREE MONTHS?! I have to work another three months of agony as an aide? I swear I was going to cry at that moment.
I am really trying to be positive about this whole thing…
At least I can work as an admissions aide now which is kinda a step up from an aide and it would look good on my resume…
I am just frustrated that it seems like every time I try to better myself in any way I will automatically fail the first time. That’s possibly the only reason why I didn’t cry. I’ve become accustomed to failing. I am still going to try but it just hurts my feelings that there hasn’t been a time where I can just succeed.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1tXhJniSEc&feature=player_embedded
Comments (1)
Experiencing setbacks are never pleasant and can feel so frustrating, but it goes hand in hand with success – not in how many times you get knocked down but in how many times you get back up. As long as you are +1 in the get up column you have what it takes to succeed. =)
Being given a test on the fly is tough because you weren’t ready for it. At least now you know what they are looking for so you have time to get better prepared. You were only one question off, so I’m sure you should have no problems with it next time.
I hate what Congress is letting happen to our country with the lack of quality jobs while they engage in juvenile fights all the while acting like puppets of corporate interests.