October 1, 2010
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Disgusting Monster
Right before I went to work I was on my Facebook just checking on the regular updates people post and I noticed something. Rickey’s status went from “single” to “in a relationship” and the first thought that crossed my mind was “well, he isn’t in a relationship with me!” I was really frantic and tried to reach him multiple times though the phone with no response.
Throughout the day my anger was building up because I couldn’t reach him on any of my breaks. I left a message earlier that morning and I didn’t even get a text response which wasn’t helping my mood. I clocked out as early as I could and made sure that all my work was completed an hour before schedule for some down time. As soon as it was time to clock out I did and bolted out the door and at record time I drove to his house and was there by eleven pm. Internally I had fucking exploded like an atomic bomb and I rang his door bell five times. Guess who answered the door?
His girlfriend. She just gave birth barely two weeks ago who was currently holding their newborn in her arms. Guess what I did two weeks ago? I lost my virginity to her boyfriend at around the time she was probably in the hospital either about to be in labor or already was.
The only reason why I don’t totally feel like a slut was I didn’t know. I completely and entirely didn’t know and I felt like such an idiot for trusting that loser in the first place.
I went on Facebook that night and looked on Rickey’s page again. I see his girlfriend commented and said that “she was happy to be together and living with him again.” Wtf.
She messages me that night saying that “she didn’t appreciate me coming over in the late hour and waking up her children.” I apologized… I was at a loss for words. I asked for her permission to say my last goodbyes because I never want to see his face again and I have some questions that need answers.
She agreed on the condition that I could find out if he has cheated with anyone else, it was a done deal.
I had the whole thing recorded, secretly of course.
Rickey didn’t say much but I covered everything I wanted to say.
I let him know how hurt I was that I finally got around to trusting him and he blew my trust. I let him know he is disgusting for sleeping with me while she was giving birth to her second child and how much she needed you to be there for her and he wasn’t. How he is disappointing everyone around him, friends and family by his actions and not being responsible. That he is becoming exactly like the person he does not want to become, his father, who was never there in his life but if he was it was because he wanted something. I think the last one stuck out the most. I never screamed and cried so much in front of someone in my whole life.
I was really happy when it was all over that Chase was there to drive me home, I felt safe.
[edited, this post was not posted at current time shown but has taken place around this time]
