June 28, 2008
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Generic Guy
Jerry was trying to message me on pirates and we pretty much we had an argument again because I was trying to resolve what just happened. He is making this really difficult for me because he said that he assumed that I was going to drag that STD conversation out, which I wasn’t. So he just left. When we were talking again I was trying to fish for an apology but I never got one. Either he didn’t get my “hinting” because I recall trying to fish for an apology in the past and he never got them or he felt like there was no reason to apologize to me. I really want to bring it up, in a way, but he is going to freak out again.
I don’t know why he can’t just face it and trying to figure out what I am trying to do. I think the core of the problem is that he doesn’t know me well enough as a friend that we aren’t working out as anything more. I think he thinks we are still dating, because I never formally told him it’s over. I would love to break it off and back track as friends, that actually talk to each other but I think that will end up as him pulling away and giving up entirely, which would be really stupid.
Why is he a generic guy who doesn’t seem to just get it?
I don’t have this problem with any of my other guy friends and I even went out of the trouble to ask a few people if I was easy to understand or not and they said, entirely. So if everyone can understand me then why can’t he.
By the end of this week I need to make a choice because I wouldn’t want to lead him on.
Let him live in a happy lie or lose him to the truth?
