May 17, 2008
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Sleeping Problems
Today was a terrible day. I missed my math tutoring this morning because I was napping. I obviously didn’t sleep well the night before. My mother is nagging me about sleeping properly and on time but it doesn’t work like that. I have been having sleep problems for about ten years now and it runs in the family. I told her it is like telling a sick person to just get better, it doesn’t work like that at all!
I feel like she set me up to fail life or something because there is so much more she could have done to help me in life, rather than sitting there. At least that’s what it feels like she’s done.
I feel better because I played outside with Kevin Kun and talked to Michael on the phone. He will be ungrounded by this Wednesday! Meaning I can hang out with my sugar booger again.
Jerry has been opening up to me a lot lately, which is always a good sign. Though, it is kind of weird that we have dreams about each other. Most people including myself can’t control their dreams so dreaming about something you actually want is pretty awesome.
I am not looking forward to seeing my tutor tomorrow so that will be slightly embarrassing. I am probably going to do some really long apologies.
Thirty-five days still school is over; I have to do some massive studying if I am going to finish this school year with some credits. I haven’t done anything at all, so far.
It is really hard to stick everything out when you’re being put down daily about everything. Though there is something that my friend Jake fisher said that I may never forget. He said something like do whatever it takes to get to your goal, even though you have to go through a lot of crap, the independence is worth it.
I want to say so much thanks to my friends and a few of my family that puts up with my crap. Like my sister who is cleaning my room out of her own free will, to make me feel better. I am not well enough to function properly and I am glad that there are people like you who realize it.
