October 15, 2007

• Snakes & Ladders

  There are so many things that happened over the week! So much to write about so brace yourself!

  Michael is going to Youth Convention with me this year! I am so excited! I hope he enjoys himself there and I hope he will enjoy it as much as I did for my first time. Our “deanery” or our group of churches in the area, are riding on the same buses. I am so happy because last year we had a transportation problem of not having enough vans to take us places, so this is just what we need. Donald is going to be my Youth Convention buddy and I can wait to reunite with my Ascend people who I just saw two months ago. One of my friends from Ascend, Jessie wants to hang out sometime around Christmas which sounds like an amazing idea but I can’t believe she is really going out of her way to pick everyone up!

  Home coming dance and game happened over the weekend. I thought both of them were pretty lame, to be honest. I am not a hardcore football person so I didn’t know what I was doing most of the time. We did win though, 40 to 17ish. We beat them pretty bad and the other team didn’t show any spirit. The cheerleaders got really tired of dancing and they didn’t know how to dance and their supporting crowd sat down the whole time, like they were ready to sleep or something. During the game Dan was kind of forcing himself on me. He kept saying he was cold and he wanted me to warm him? I simply said no thanks but he tried to get his arm around me about three or four times max, during the whole game but I took his arm and placed it back on his lap. Aren’t I mean?

  The dance was worse than the game. The music was really boring and really repetitive. I can tell they were running out of ideas for songs because they played a lot of songs over again. The music was really hard to get into because it was just rap all the time. I wish they had more selection and maybe a music request box would help. You couldn’t even request songs! We went to Panda Inn for our dinner and after the dance we went to Shari’s. My parents got mad because I didn’t tell them I would be going to a restaurant afterwards even though I called them as soon as I could. They were also mad that I stayed out kind of late, but whatever. I wish they could just let me be sometimes.

  I’ve been on the happy side though. I changed up my MySpace so now it is more fitted for my mood.

  I have also got my infatuation for Michael back again, it is an on and off thing that has been happening since I met him. So lately I was thinking what would it be like if I dated him and I wouldn’t ask him out but if he asked me I would think about it a bit more and maybe say yes? I don’t know, he hasn’t cheated on anyone before and he is a really lame romantic, but romantic none the less, with a good heart. I am not thrilled with the fact he already had sex, if I dated him I would feel so dirty. Yes, dirty.

  Which brings me into the subject of Jerry, who likes me and I kind of like him but he has had sex a lot of times before which really bothers me and I don’t think I have told him that yet but it is expected. Jerry, Michael and whoever else doesn’t expect sex from me or anything because they are both clearly aware that I will not give it to them but why are these people attracted to me? Jerry has been acting all flirty with me for quite a while now. I really hate his mood swings though, when I think we are progressing and becoming stronger it seems to go back to the beginning which reminds me of the song lyrics I heard last night.

  99 1/2 it just won’t do
  You gotta give me all of you

  Not asking too much of a heart that’s true
  So tell me…
  What’s the name of the game that we are playing
  But whenever I think that we are winning
  Then you roll the dice take a slide
  Right back to the one from 99
  Is it gonna go on like this forever
  Are we gonna to take that last step together
  Going round and round and up and down
  Feels just like snakes and ladders

  I don’t really like the game of snakes and ladders honestly because you have to be really lucky not to go on some slides. I always fall on the biggest ladder right before the finish line that takes you all the way back to the beginning. Anyways, I don’t see myself getting serious with Jerry; because I don’t think his is entirely serious about me either.

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