September 27, 2007
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What Happend To My Sexyness?
I feel like shit. I am not one to swear but I can’t find a better word for the moment. I don’t have an entirely good reason. I haven’t done my homework my tutor gave me and I am so disappointed in myself because I seem to do that a lot to her. I also feel stupid, very stupid. I wish I could have good looks and brains but I am just a no good slacker who stresses out a lot about work I should be doing. Maybe if I keep writing about this enough I will actually do it. Who knows? I may feel so pissed I want to study. I am also got done from being sick but I can’t recover because when I go back to the Japanese room the girl coughs around me all over again. Good thing I don’t have school tomorrow.
Why do people say I am “cute” I don’t understand. I don’t try to give off that kind of impression. I used to be sexy a year ago and now I am cute? Is it because I am small? Is it because I say something weird? I prefer to be somewhat on the sexy side but I can’t with these pimples. I am giving myself a really hard time. This long weekend is what I need to chill out for a while.
Dang, I bet I failed that Japanese test but that is alright because it seemed like the room failed with me. We might be able to do a retake. My Japanese teacher isn’t teaching well.
I talked to Dan today and he is wondering why I am picking up on his calls. Well, maybe I have a life other than the phone! Maybe I don’t need to keep track of his life and get on with my own! I have drawn my boundary line out for him as well as everyone, unless they are blind.
I need to stop taking naps and start waking up early. I feel so tired right now it is really hard to focus on stuff. I get less than five hours of sleep because I wake up around five and go to sleep around midnight. My bed is uncomfortable for some reason, I wish I could just trade beds with my sister or something.
On the somewhat happier note, I got my eBay shoes in the mail today but it wasn’t what I entirely expected. It is ever-so-slightly big for me but I just need to tweak it a bit. I need new arches and why are people’s feet so big? Sometimes I wish that my feed were bigger so I can fit into more shoes but I guess I like size.
I got something for Donald today. It kept me from being depressed today because it is so funny.
Anyways, what I am trying to say in this whole entry is how come I suck so much and why on earth do people still give a flick about me? I won’t die, I’ll just be really sad today until I get a good rest. Then I will be happier in my future entries.
Did you know I can’t spell worth crap? Just saying.
Comments (6)
I try to be have happy entries too but sometimes it doesn’t work out so well. When I’m sitting in my chair wondering what to write, mind is wandering, negative things come more to mind than postive things. I don’t know if it’s like that with everyone but it’s like that with me. Then I think I must be emo or something and it all goes downhill from there.
Aww…I’m sorry you’re feeling crappy. When I don’t do my homework, I feel guilty but I usually get over it. I think that might be a bad thing. But since it’s your own private tutor and you have a closer relationship, I’m sure your guilt is much heavier. From what I’ve seen, you don’t look nor sound like a stupid person. You seem pretty intelligent to me. U defintely dunt type lik this. Lol. And why wouldn’t you want to be cute?? Cute is so much better than being sexy..well that’s opinion anyway, lol. Sexy can’t last but cuteness can last forever. You can be cute when you’re 40, 50, 60, whatever. I know with today’s society, the importance of being sexy is high but I still prefer cute. Of course I’m still jealous of all those sexy skinny women -_- but cute is the way to go! And I think the type of guys who go for cute girls are more of a gentleman than the others. Lol, I guess what I’m trying to say is…embrace your cuteness!….at least until you get your sexyness back if you still want it.
P.S I think you spell pretty well ^_^ and what’s your shoe size? And sorry this was such a long comment >.<
Oh yeah, I like the sun and moon equally too but mostly art wise. I can’t stand the sun because of all the heat. Lol, I’m a real whiner when it comes to hot summer days. And I think I like the moon more is because it’s associated with the night time and nights have a more mysterious feel to it. Like anything can happen. Like something extraordinary. Lol, that’s what I like to think anyway.
feel better soon!
god bless
hah thanks!
and you are taking japanese too? nihongo o sukoshi hanashimasu! demo, kanji wa wakarimasen! my college is ok; sadly the kids still act like they are high school kids- that disappointed me. But nonetheless, the moral is high!
hahaha! well, “nihongo” means japanese (pertaining to the language), so “nihongo o sukoshi hanashimasu” means “I speak a little bit of japanese” because hanashimasu means speak, and sukoshi means a little. ne? hahaha, japanese is pretty easy to learn, i think you’ll do well =]
there’s a wonderful little chart on google. i think all you have to type is “katakana” for katakana, and “hiragana” for hiragana… ect.good luck! kampai!
Haha, I noticed you changed your title. Nice.
Yeah, some people hate the show or love it. I find it hilarious and relaxing. It’s one of those shows you can just sit back, open a can of beer..lol, that was an attempt to be funny. Anyway, like I was saying, a very relaxing show, I don’t have to get all in it like CSI or something. And some of the lines on there….absolute classics. Like from the last show “Hey, I know you, it’s so nice you went back to school and got your degree” XD
5’1? Hey, me too! But I’m not so skinny -_- and my shoe size is 6-7 and I thought I had small feet. o.o 4 is really tiny, you weren’t kidding when you said small, lol.
I guess I should have worded it better, it should have been more like “you don’t sound stupid” lol