April 30, 2012
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Structure of Society
Recently I have started to reanalyze my life and I don’t know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. I have been contemplating my progress in school (or lack thereof) and I am wondering if the world really as easy as it can be. I feel like every time I go into school I am piling on more stuff than I can handle and although my classes are strongly within passing range they all perfect which I consider a 3.8 or higher. I could take fewer classes and master them like perhaps two or take on a huge load of sixteen credits which is what I am taking now and half ass it. I hate not going through with things entirely, it bothers me but I feel pressured to run myself into the ground because I just want to graduate and get out of my life of hell here with my mother.
I feel like it would be so much simpler if I could just drop everything and run away across the water but I know my impatience would cost me greatly. I am confused between working really hard and postponing my school (which I strongly hate the thought of) or continue to stress myself out. I am starting to see that there is no reason to do this. One of these days I need to sit and just re-adjust my plans, I am getting rather frustrated. One of the other things that are not going according to plan is my car. I was hoping to get my car paid off at my two year mark but it looking like that is going to happen in maybe 3? I can’t wait that long I am so impatient. I do not want to slack on my excessive amounts of payments either but I can’t even begin to describe the frustration I feel when I see a chunk of it go to my interests. Regardless, I will suck it up and carry on but that doesn’t mean I can’t complain about it along the way. I can’t blame people for hindering my successes but I feel that if only my mother didn’t pressure me into buying a car I wouldn’t have taken out a loan, simple as that. Loans of any kind are horrible.
Other than money babble I’ve been thinking a lot about people and the structure of society. We live in such a cruel society and I don’t understand why people do half the things they do. I love people but that’s what I say because I am blindly optimistic. Realistically I think that this world is so horribly rude that even the few honest stories that I hear via. the news and whatnot can’t even begin to compensate for the millions of billions rude comments of gestures I see/hear on a daily basis. Doesn’t this bug anyone else? Doesn’t anyone else think like this? I think most people don’t really think about this mostly because society has dumbed down a lot of notches. Perhaps, I am too sensitive who knows? I just feel like people around me are just so rude and I have to constantly put up walls and call this the “norm” of society. This might be locational, I am not sure. Simply put I am just getting so tired of putting myself out there and going above and beyond for some friends when no one does the same in return. When someone asks me for a favor and it’s in my inconvenience now-a-days, I just tell them I don’t FEEL like doing that/helping you out sorry. This is the norm. This is not my norm and this is not how I want to treat people and this is not how I want people to treat me.
Comments (2)
When it comes to planning, especially on the financial side you have to have some flexibility. After all, that’s why it’s a plan. =) Financial surprises come up which can impact original timetables. But it’s good to have a plan since it helps you stay on track to complete your goals.
If you live in an area without decent public transportation, then having a car is almost a must.
Some loans may be unavoidable if it’s for something that is a necessity. Some loans are also good – the ones that are an investment that can appreciate in value such as a home purchase or education.
Many people are selfish, but there are unselfish people in the world as well. It’s just that as times get tougher, more of the selfish people will stand out.
Some happy news sites:
http://www.goodnewsnetwork.org/
http://www.happynews.com/