January 25, 2012
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Breathe In
Since my breakup with Michael things have gotten a lot better for me and I have slowly started seeing things from a different perspective. It was honestly really hard at first to get over him because I felt like a piece of worthless shit after everything I’ve done for him. I just wanted to be treated with love in respect I wish I didn’t let things get out of hand like they did. I wish I had time to question everything he did and back talked him like I would have normally would have done in any other relationship instead of having someone walk all over me. I hate when people take advantage of my kindness. This is how I see it…
“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else and for everything you gain, you lose something else. It is about your outlook towards life. You can either regret or rejoice.”
This is the perspective I choose to look at when I continue my journey through life and I realized I have more to gain this way than lose. I have so much to look forward to in my life and I don’t need someone with a negative vibe to ruin the bright future ahead of me.
When Michael and I broke up I seemed to acquire a lot of admirers confessing their undying love for me, which is fucking annoying. I have such a hard time getting rid of people who are so quick to give away their position with me when we have barely became friends. Also, I hate when people smother me with affection too soon or stalk me. I like the chase of the game, the more challenging the better. Although I also don’t like working for too long or I get burned out but I have a pretty long fuse.
Anyways, I am thankful for my sister to help me get rid of all my stalkers by helping be write very bold letters. I am still happy about that because I have so much free time to myself to do what I want. I feel like I can breathe again, for the first time in a long time.
Well do you have some of those days
When you can’t be who you wanna be
When you just need to close your eyes
Pull the covers up so high and drift away
and sleep so soundly
and dream profoundly
Cast all your cares on the
Only thing that you really need
and sleep so soundlyNow I feel so light
My sense of movement’s slowed
and somehow my tongue’s tied
My thoughts are shattered
and they’re making stars in the sky
and I’ve never felt so speechless
in my lifeClose your eyes breathe in and out and
Drift away
