May 15, 2008

• Lots Of Boys & Friends

  I am excited because it is almost the end of the week! There is this guy at school that I think likes me. I talk to him every morning before class starts with a lot of my other friends. My friend Cathy said that she notices that he pays special attention to me, even though there are many other people in the group. She says he stares at me and stuff unlike everyone else. It was funny because I was instant messaging her telling her that I think he likes me and exactly a few seconds afterwards, he asks me to go to this thing called Viking fest? I said I would ask my parents but I would love to go.

  The funny thing is that isn’t the only boy. Since second period started, I haven’t seen Rickey that much but now he comes up to me a few times a week. Is he just doing this because it’s almost summer time and he wants me as a summer fling? I have no idea. I think that he was crushed by the fact that I rejected his offer to date so soon and to still be friends, when I kind of promised that I will see about it two months after I knew him. After I did that he completely withdrew from me, he stopped calling and keeping in contact with me in general.

  Not to sound like I have a boy list going but I get along with Sam my childhood friend, not to be confused with Samuel McIntyre or in my earlier entries as just Sam.

  A few months ago I was doing a fundraiser for our church, I was selling lumpia and I had my chair tilted back trying to sleep because it was between masses and no one was there. She came up to me (it was kind of awkward having someone stare at you while you’re sleeping) and she asked, do you know my grandson? I replied who is your grandson? She said Sam Silverstein, which I instantly woke up excited saying we lived in the same apartments and went to school together! I haven’t seen or talked to him in years! She kindly said well if you write down your number I will give it to him the next time I see him. Which I did, and I anxiously waited for him to call me but he never did. I only waited a week until I tried to find his MySpace, with no luck. I looked at my wall which had our old class photo and looked for the correct spelling of his name, I typed it in and he added me. He also remembered me to, after all these years!

  I wanted to talk on Myspace and catch up with him but all he kept saying is, want to play Brawl? Which I have to admit, was really irritating and someone depressing not being able to talk about what’s happened over the years, I still haven’t gotten around to that conversation because he doesn’t seem interested in talking about those things. We planned to go walking next time the weather here is good. I kind of like him because we have so much in common. We both have a love for nature; fishing and we both have generally positive energy. Though this one day I had a bad day he didn’t do a good job of cheering me up. All he said was, I try not to let those things get to me, which wasn’t comforting at all. There aren’t a lot of things that bother me and if they do I feel better about it after writing in my Xanga.

  I think it is so weird that after I am actually dating someone (although most people don’t know about it) that’s when the guys start coming to me. It is really bizzare!

  I think I came to a conclusion about Jerry, after reviewing my past weblogs and thinking a lot. I love Jerry I really and truly do but we just don’t click in the most important ways, like communication and priorities. He has definitely made a huge change because he talks a lot more now but he isn’t exactly a “chatty Cathy”. Above all I can feel people’s energy and whatnot, I am more attracted with people who have a strong desire to be out-and-about exploring and living life. Like Sam and Donald for example. With Jerry I don’t know if he has a sense of adventure. I know he lives in a very boring place but there has to be something other than video games that he could be interested about. I should ask him tonight, if I remember. I don’t think I will break up with him quite yet, I will give him time. I am also very aware of the consequences that he may not want to be with me again, even as friends.

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